So here we are again, at the end of another year. It’s been
good and bad, but the more I think about it the more positives I can find.
Looking back at my first post of the year (5 January 2012), I
can see how far I’ve come with most resolutions.
I decided I wouldn’t’ be such a control freak in my personal
life. I think it worked… I’m more relaxed about things and try not to rely on
people too much. If I want to do something, I do it, even if it’s by myself.
I wanted to have a ‘healthy, happy, real relationship’ with
a decent man. Unfortunately, this didn’t happen. BUT, I did figure out a bad
pattern and have been working on changing that. I actually didn’t really stick
to anything I said… So I make an effort not to go for men who are unavailable in
any form. I am also not here to fix people and deal with their issues for them.
The standard ones I got right, I lost weight, went down 2
dress sizes, am much stronger now and I have blogged semi regularly.
But recapping the year… on the positive side, this is what
happened
I did a counselling course through FAMSA. It was awesome! I learnt
so much and it also helped me figure that it’s something I want to do more of
and that I may need to think about a new path. I haven’t formally used it yet,
but I’d like to develop it. I have used the skills informally and seem quite
good at it.
On the work front, I got to do some big and different events.
The downside to that was burnout twice in a year (not fun!!). Luckily there
some quiet months after that where I could regroup and get back to normal.
I had an amazing holiday with my parents in October. We went
to the Kruger Park where we saw some amazing things! I haven’t been there since
I was a kid, so it was great! It was nice to have some real quality time with
them with no distractions. We also spent time in Doornkop, which is always
relaxing.
In September, I went to Cape Town for my bestest friends younger
brother’s wedding. It was the best one I’ve been to! We had so much fun, it was
so relaxed and all in all a great weekend away. I got to know her daughters a
bit more (and am now quite besotted J). I’m going back for more next week.
I have just been to Durban with my mom for my aunt’s 60th
birthday and the SA leg of my cousin’s wedding celebrations. I met his son and
again am quite besotted. Everyone just seems to have the cutest, most amazing
children! I got to catch up with family I hardly ever see, which is always fun.
I also got to be a tourist for a while, something I also love doing!
I also did some really fun things this year. We went to
Madame Zingara, saw Lady Gaga live (AWESOME!!!!), saw the Springboks play New Zealand
(so much eye candy!), went horse riding at Doornkop (and was bruised in the
wrong places for 2 weeks), went to a lot of food and wine festivals, discovered
I can drink red wine again (WOOOHOOO!!), went to a couple H2O’s and danced my
ass off, had fun times with friends and spent some good quality time with Caroline
while I can. I also bought Red Hot Chili Pepper tickets!! I am so excited about
that! I can die happy on the 4th February (I’ll need a day to revel
in the glow).
I really got into the gym and health thing. I eventually
gave up my trainer at the end of September (not easy, but necessary). I think I
now train harder than before and am stiff most days (I take that as a good
sign!). I have tried to eat healthily but sometimes you just need a big glass
of wine and a chocolate! I’ve also had a great year at dancing – great choreography,
awesome friends and a guaranteed laugh at every class. I also started ‘cycling’
with my dad - nothing hectic, but I can still ride a bike and have done some nice
rides with him. Hopefully we’ll do a couple in Knysna next week.
And I’ve met some amazing people! I don’t know when last I was
able to connect with people on so many levels and in different ways. I have met
some great guys who have helped me on my ‘journey’ towards becoming better and
deserving better. (Not all of them have been great, but have still helped in
some way anyway.) Besides the fact that they don’t live in the same province,
it’s a start and a step in the right direction.
There were of course the not so great things. We had a
tragedy at work where one of my favourite people was killed in a terrible
accident. I did my spring clean and ‘lost’ some friends. I had glandular fever,
with my first burnout. There was a scare with my dad and his heart, but it all turned
out fine.
I learnt some very important things though. If something
needs to be said so that I can move on and there’s a benefit, then I say it. It
may hurt like hell, especially when deciding to cut someone out, but in the
long run it’s a good thing. I’ve learnt not to expect too much from people. They
have different priorities and that’s ok. Surround yourself with people who make
you smile and laugh and who you know you can call on when you really need them.
Family is the most important thing – they love you unconditionally and will
always have your back.
So what does 2013 hold? I’m hoping for more fun and
excitement. I’m looking at doing some different volunteer work, maybe
counselling, community services, who knows? I also want to further my education
in some way, I just need to decide how and where. I suppose I’m really looking
for a new challenge overall. We’ll just have to see how that all works out…
I hope you all have a great festive season filled with
family, friends and fun!
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